Hopeless

Hopeless

    

     Maybe, just time will be… I’m not the same that I was years ago, I changed for you, I did everything to make you the happiest girl, I really did that right, but… You? You just make me so sad every day I live, you just hurt me more. Day after day I felt this pain, I never left you behind, I never let you fall down, but you’re gone. I felt you no more.

     Probably, I’ve got the time I needed, but I still hurt. I was never really alone, I ever had a thousand friends by my side, caring me, holding me when I needed. You never did this to me. You never loved me for real. You just were bullshit, amazing but the greatest bullshit of my life. I wish I die for you and you fucking betrayed me!  

      I’m alone once again... The past should stay dead, but it’s alive and I don’t know what I have to do. I feel strange, quiet and frozen inside. My eyes don’t know a pretty place to see, can’t feel my heart beat anymore, can’t think don't cry again.

     Need somebody to hold me so strong. Someone I can trust. Someone makes me smile again. Someone makes me happy for a first time. Someone will not lie.

     I want to be free. I really need peace. It will be much better to me. ‘Cause you said this would last forever, but you broken your promise. You choose the worst way to go… I told you “I never felt this way before” but you don’t believe in me, I never lied to you! I’m here, but you’re not real. I cannot forget and I can’t make it real.

“Your body is cold

Hope is lost

I can’t let go […]

[…] Too late too late

I never said goodbye

Too late to late

Can’t even ask you why

And now I’m wasted in my own misery

I hope you finely gone to a place where you belong… […]

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So just kill me now and let the good things roll”